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Saturday, May 14, 2011

My heart is out of the ICU already. I thank God for having me safely. It is healing from hurts that one cannot imagine having. It is now under recovery and will be locked out for some time. Those who want to pay a visit, please take caution. Just be nice. Those who made the hurt, I have forgiven you but let’s face it. I am not a super human despite me wanting to be okay with everyone. It is hard to go on with life knowing that there are people you are indifferent with. In the end, we will all meet again and say we had good times, we were good people and we did a good job. Thank you for being proud in my hurting, for being genuinely happy and standing by it.

Taylor Swift’s new song correctly expressed one of the feelings I had. Now, it is just a traumatic experience - a fear that will remain. I am aware and recognize the fact that I am still in the depression mode and gaining my strength. It is not easy as I want it to be. I even get scared and turned off about anything that reminds me of black. 

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