the grace

Thursday, November 18, 2010

I had a turning point last Monday. God incredibly made my crooked road straight, and I have seen it. 3 decades of a life story and the gray colors in my heart are now colored. Such a relief to see back my old confident self. I felt like a newborn child, with a giggle to show my happiness. I wanted to sing, and shout to my heart’s content. I was guarded by angels and ready to conquer the world. I was just very happy to be loved by God but…

Reality sink in, and I am back to short-term tasks, classes, software, letters, salaries. I am even down to my last coin. The devil surely tempts and makes its way to make u depress. Even thinking of Love alone can get me ride back on edge. It is difficult to hold back the tears and to feel alone when all you want is to reminisce the love and closeness. All these are tough tasks especially when one is counting years, healing scars and no room for risks-taking but only precise steps.

What I need is a focus, a plan to make my dreams come true. I pray for good health, a hearty laugh, eternal love and many years of good living. I dedicate my life to you Lord, forever in your grace.

P.S. hope you let me win the lottery.