True by Ryan Cabrera

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afarid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps fallnig faster

Ive waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life ive waiting
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afarid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

Ive waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life ive waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

Ive waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life ive waitied

This is true

A Christmas Letter from Jesus Beloved

Well, as you know, it’s time for my birthday again. Last year they had a real big party for me and it seems like they will again this year. After all, they’ve been shopping and preparing for it for months now, and there have been announcements and advertisements almost everyday about how soon it’s coming! They really do go overboard about it, but it’s nice to know that at least on one day of the year some people are thinking about me a little. You know, it’s been many years now since they first started celebrating my birthday. Back then they seemed to realize and appreciate how much fun it is for the little children. Just the same, it seems that most folks are missing the point of it all. Like last year, for example. When my birthday came around they threw a big party but can you believe it, I wasn’t invited! Imagine! The guest of honor, and they forgot all about me! Here they had begun preparing for the festivities two months in advance but when the big day came I was left out in the cold!

Well, it happened so many times in recent years I wasn’t even surprised. Even though I wasn’t invited I thought I’d just quietly slip in anyway. So I came in and stood off to the side. Everyone was drinking, laughing and having a grand time, when all of the sudden, in came this fellow in a bright red suit wearing a phony white beard and shouting “Ho Ho Ho!” Everyone cheered, all the children came running over to him, excitedly yelling Santa!” You would have thought that he was the guest of honor and the whole holiday was in his honor! Then he began telling them the most ridiculous stories you’ve ever heard … Finally I had to leave, walked out of the door, but no one even noticed that I had gone. I’m planning of holding my own party! How about that? It’s going to be the biggest, most fantastic feast, you could possibly imagine! I’m not saying the date yet, but I’m sending out invitations now anyway because I know you’ll want to come. There’s going to be room for everyone who wants to come! I’ll reserve you a seatof honor (Matthew 8:11) So hold on to your hat because when everything is ready I’m going to spring it as a big surprise and a lot of people are going to be left out in the cold because they didn’t answer my invitation! Let me know right away if you’d like to come and I’ll reserve you a place and write your name in large golden letters in my BIG GUEST BOOK!! Much Love, JESUS

just taking a time off..

We meet many people in our lives. Some would leave a footprint, others will leave a footprint on your face, tsk.. tsk.. tsk.. While still, there are few who would take the time off, even a little, for a dear friend. Though I am not a super friend, I would like to assume I am one of those few. It is seldom that we appreciate the real essence of friendship. Sometimes, we get it mixed up with our work and forget in the process. A simple response for a text is one way to show our care. Often times, I don’t like to keep people waiting for my reply because that’s the least I can give. As much as possible, beneath all the piles of work, I’d go and make a quick reply. Sometimes, you call it multi-tasking. Nowadays, we have to be multi-skilled in all areas even in friendships. E-mails though will take more time to create and that requires more attention. For me, simply saying “hi” and “how are u?” is enough to warm a smile.

December 8

I think I destroyed something yesterday.. I wasn’t thinking. I let ms. hyde take the flight. I was vulnerable, and all too emotional to know the answers to many of the questions. I sought companionship where there is none. I thought there was an ivory tower at the top of the hill. Ms. hyde let it all loose from pandora’s box. It was a shame to let everything be carried away from the chime of a sweet thought. I know everything happens for a reason but sometimes you have to get wet under the rain to start another season. I pray more than anything else that true friendship remains… sigh, wish I can go back in time and redo everything. 

December 2005

It’s December again and it’s the first day of the month. I want to start it with a festive mood, happy and generous. I want to live like it’s the best month ever. Most of all, I want to live it with friends and loved ones. It’s also a nice time to fall in love again with all the gifts and blessings the world can provide. Hey, let’s start it now…