It’s raining again…

Hello there, it’s raining again. I woke up late. It looked like it was still 6am. Luckily, I was able to report to office on time. I am wearing a warm outfit, jeans and a knit top. I am in a lethargic mood with all thoughts occupying my mind. It is rather tiring that I want to sleep on it hoping it will go away tomorrow. Yes, you are right. Something is bothering me and I want to get rid of it but I can’t. It’s making its way through me. Monday and Tuesday were good days. Wednesdays not that good again. I am always left hanging after looking forward to a good day. The activity last night was good, but the welcome party is not that great. I still feel uncomfortable especially with the one person I expect to like most. Anyway, perhaps in time again I can forget about it. Ciao, got to go and study Fuzzy Logic…

My Thanks to the Lord..

Thank you for the many blessings you showered upon me. When I was in trouble, you were there. When I was lonely, you were there. When I was abandoned, you were there. When I was lost, you were there. You who always love me inspite of my weaknesses. I praise thee with all of my life and I love thee.

Where are we going?

I was waiting for a tricycle last night at 7pm along Gov. alvarez when I noticed a family of four (mother and 3 children) with their kariton scavenging for leftovers and usable items at the garbage disposal bins. It was a pitiful sight to see them working in the smelly sacks and dirty trash. My heart went with them. I felt low, remorse and angry. Clearly, the downfall of our economy is taking its toll. I see more poor people now in Zamboanga (right!) going over trash and garbage areas. What should I do? This is very sad. My prayers are for them. I could only blame our society and the government for wasting time and money on more unimportant things. Why can’t we pull our resources together and see the bigger picture - of poverty and of fair justice? Poverty that not only brings injustice to how one should live but that it also takes the moral out of a person.

Over the radio, an announcer was reporting and complaining about performance of our students in public schools. It’s really silly. Can’t they use common sense? You can’t blame students for not performing. There are bigger pictures to see than mere education. The leaders should focus on the support structures before whining over low performance. This means food, shelter, and clothing.

The problem is we have so many basic problems that are left unsolved and still we add it up. When can we see the government out of its political system? When can we see a leader who does not tolerate vices, and gambling? When can we see a leader who speaks not for political advantage? When can we see our fellowmen reaching out more to its society?

Recent news in Zamboanga that I find unimportant now: GMA informed that SouthCom should be transferred to Pagadian. Regional office starts evacuating to Pagadian. In the national scope, legalized Jueteng. This is b*******. We are going nowhere if we continue like this!

Of life…

There are many things in life that we cannot explain. Things that are surprisingly wonderful and at the same time you want to get away from. I know things come when you least expect them. However, wouldn’t it be better (and my preference) if one is ready? Wouldn’t it be okay to say, “Ok, I can do the next challenge?” Yet come to think of it, there would be many things one will missed out if one waits for his or her right time. It is IDEAL but I have come to realize the truth in the words “Life is too short.” We are all in this “Life” together. There are no wasted moments. We must face the music even if it comes in different tones. Take it while it’s there or forever “regret” why you didn’t. On the other hand, there is the sense of knowing the purpose. What am I here for? Who am I? Why me? These are Questions that we thirst for answers - from life and from one’s faith. Faith that comes from within the spirit.

I had my difficult and light moments. I faced different music. I can say I am not ready for anything but I am willing to accept life’s challenges whether it be hard or easy. Life has taught me little secrets to keep me going and come out alive. It has taught me to find meaning in the smallest of light amidst the darkness in things. It has earned me different virtues to cherish and blessings that were once in disguise. Again, I am left wondering and, somehow, this excites me. Hmm… (sigh) How will I know? What is there in front of me? Is it good? Am I going to meet someone, or somebody? Will I win the lottery? What’s next? No fears.. I only hope it is not a wall hehehe.

Thinking out loud

Huhummm., I still feel sssleeeeppy. I woke up this morning at 4am with many thoughts in mind. Guess, I may have put too many “items” in my mind yesterday. I hope all of these are worth the headache most of all the special daydreams. Will it come? Gee, “sana…” I wish we had some predicting powers to guess what is at stake. They say, “signs are everywhere.” For me, I only rely on good signs and the logical consequences of matter. How about you, do you believe in signs? How do you know something is about to come? In AI, we can represent many things (e.g. knowledge) in symbols and prove that there is something. Of course, you need the data. Unfortunately, I only have bits and pieces of it to put together. It’s really not enough to build anything with. Sigh.. Let’s cross our fingers and keep the ball rolling. Confused?  That makes the two of us… Oops, got to go. Still have many things to do today.