red light!

Stop bothering me with your hi’s and hello’s J. I don’t need you. You have done enough damage.

A Walk to Remember

The first time I watch  this movie was during the first time I travelled abroad going to Australia. It is played by Mandy Moore and Shane West. A story of one’s journey witnessing love doing its miracle in the lives of 2 teenagers. I feel like it was not that long since I saw it. It always bring me to deep feelings, reminiscing love, and feeling that wonder in our hearts. It does not fail to bring me into tears even after how many times I watched it in HBO.

A walk to remember is also my journey in life. We make sure we don’t take things for granted. Little things make up the big things. We cherish the little steps we take, the time we meet friends, the talks we share, the moments of joy, the time when we decide, the observations of love, respect and care we treasure with others. And the time when we are always PRESENT in the moment. It is always easy to slip away and take things aside, and remember nothing. For this reason, even sitting down, should have its moment. 

In the end, it is always remembering that we spent our Time wisely, loved fully and in good faith with others. It is not remembering we spent our time hurting others, and taking little things for granted. It is making and seeing the miracles working from the gift of goodness found in our hearts. 

trauma

My heart is out of the ICU already. I thank God for having me safely. It is healing from hurts that one cannot imagine having. It is now under recovery and will be locked out for some time. Those who want to pay a visit, please take caution. Just be nice. Those who made the hurt, I have forgiven you but let’s face it. I am not a super human despite me wanting to be okay with everyone. It is hard to go on with life knowing that there are people you are indifferent with. In the end, we will all meet again and say we had good times, we were good people and we did a good job. Thank you for being proud in my hurting, for being genuinely happy and standing by it.

Taylor Swift’s new song correctly expressed one of the feelings I had. Now, it is just a traumatic experience - a fear that will remain. I am aware and recognize the fact that I am still in the depression mode and gaining my strength. It is not easy as I want it to be. I even get scared and turned off about anything that reminds me of black. 

laughing at my self

I was browsing for videos and look at what I found. It feels strange to hear oneself. for the past 5 years, there are still many things to improve in my public presentations - the hair, the voice, the tone.. pretty amazing how a video can reflect what you like and don’t like to see. I am still laughing at myself from this. This was the first event for FOSS (Free and Open Source Software) in the city and many educators attended. I think I was a new Toastmaster then. You can still hear the echoe in the gym. You can click and Play the video to hear my speech.

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